Just So You Know

You mean the world to me. You are not better than the rest, but the best, my greater half without whom I am incomplete. With you, I can be myself, devoid of all inhibitions. When you smile, the radiance lights up my face. When I hurt you, I hurt myself even more. Your silence is a punishment worse than a thousand whiplashes. Your every gesture I have treasured in the chest of life. If I misunderstand you, it is because I fail to understand myself. At times, I make you feel I do not trust you. They are just some streaks from the past, which will disappear eventually. I trust your love to erase them away. No one could ever love me the way you do.

Remember our first walk on that full moon night? You and me arm in arm, totally oblivious to the world. The first time we held hands, the first time we kissed? All those sweet nothings? These are not sheer memories, they are magical treasures which have been preserved for eternity, beautifully wrapped in our love. When I am lost or broken down, I take them out ever so carefully and turn them over, admiring their loveliness. And once the mind is at rest and I have had my fill, I place them back with the gentlest of caresses. No, I do not wish for those moments to come back. Because I know the times ahead will be as, if not even more, beautiful.

We always contend as to whose love is greater, yours or mine. Though I insist it is me, deep down I know who the winner is. And that is one contest I am ready to lose, time and again. Though you are not by my side, it never seems that way. How do I know even before looking at the phone that it is your call or message? Why do I feel so null when you are gloomy? Why does my heart thump like mad when you are in peril? I never believed in soulmates till you came along. Wherever I go, whatever I do, you are in the back of my mind, the eye of my heart. In realms of subconsciousness during those final moments before awaking and sleeping, my first and last thoughts are always of you.

I am thankful to Him for sending you into my life. You are my angel, the light which guided me when I was astray. Just be with me as you have always been, through this life and beyond. I love you. Words would run dry if I have to describe how much.I will not apologize for the times I have hurt you, intentionally or otherwise. Because love is never having to say you are sorry. Why do I love you? I do not know. There is no reason to love you, no reason is called for. There is no perfect moment to love nor a perfect love. All we have is this lifetime and everything we have is each other.

Fate entwined us and so we shall remain, even after...